A complex autobiography which reflects interaction with thousands of no name people on a trail of 45 years of undiagnosed autism. Survival extended through school then scores of residential abodes, workplaces, interest groups and social activities. Along the way non-autistic health issues were blamed for failure to thrive in life. Treating the mental effect of those other merged issues was also a serendipitous treatment for the negative effects of the long term issue of hidden Asperger syndrome, which when recognized saw ignorance replaced by enlightenment. A new understanding was won. The author's experience can show modern youth with early age diagnosis for their difference that they are fortunate to be in a position to avoid unnecessary negative experience. The unusual features of the book are that no one is named in negative incidents, they remain anonymous; and that the book is not a typical autobiography of 'successes', but rather 'how I survived'. Contents include: bullying; manner and speech; defeating toxic shame; the ugly behavior of persons with Aspergers' that are undiagnosed and the effect on others; what is normal; apparently surviving early life tuberculosis; using alcohol as a relief; sensory overload; pretending to be non-autistic; thinking in pictures; figurative expressions; run my life by rules; list making; the Cassandra; anger management; cease reacting to disapproval; 'the co-dependency movement'.